The Vikid Fast - Day 17 of 20

Doubts, Norio Kushi & The Phantom

Doubts

It’s day 17 and doubts again start to circle my mind. I was up at 3 am this morning.It’s getting earlier and earlier. I tried to deal with the ant infestation that seems to be attacking my room and then meditated for about 30 mins. I felt distracted and couldn’t go on.

Then doubts kept rising in my mind. 4 days more, can I do it? Going on an adventure to a place world famous for its food and I can’t have any? I kept dreaming about different foods and how they taste, how they would be so scrumptious etc… needless to say this was all just going on in my mind.

Physically I am totally fine. I went for a good 40 min walk and I feel well.

Getting to the finish line will now be mostly a mind game, I assume.

Norio Kushi & The Phantom

Norio Kushi is an enlightened truck driver. Strange as it sounds, he has spent his adult life asking deep questions as his mind rested upon the gentle hum of the engine below him. One day he saw the light and emerged awakened. Funky story.

So, I was listening to him speak about his onion theory on thought / energy and for just a moment it clicked for me too.

Thought is circular and “the self” is a created phantom.

My mind quieted for a few moments… then… the self arose like loaf in an oven all puffed up with pride for this achievement and as soon as that happened, it vanished, as quickly as it came.

I was full of hot air once again. Never mind...

And so it goes this fast, mini realizations, doubts, weird sensations, no mind, mind, emotions etc… all tumultuously and spontaneous happening.

It’s an adventure in itself.

I’ve got 4 days to go and what seemed impossible is within reach.

That’s All Folks,

The Vikid Truth